i hate feeling like this forreal.

i hate feeling the way i do...ima explain it later..So far my weekend started out shitty..why? well remember i told you i ended up spending the night over my friends house because i didnt feel like driving home? well i should of (kinda) i woke up that next morning and i noticed my damn left foot was hurting and itching alil (my socks were clean negros before yall start thinking) so you know i brushed it off and kept it moving. i mad to make a trip to the bank to get some money out for two reasons:

1. pay friend for fixing my ride
2. money for my jordans

So after i did that i headed back to my friends house to take them to there cousins house which i didnt mind because it was on the way...So after i did that i kept trying to get in touch with my elementry friend but she was so damn busy (again) we never got to meet up. So then one of my friends called me up...now 9 times outtta 10 she is all of sudden calling me because i have a car ( which i hate that shit...it shows how fake you are in the end) then at the same time calling me asking me where i am at (ooooooooooooooooo i hate that shit. you aint my girl so i dont think thats none of your business) So this is where i get all pissed off...how the fuck you gonna just volenteer my services to just take you somewhere? there was no questions asked it was "yea i need to get to this place so i can get these clothes for my child" i am like how the hell you getting up there? THEN she proceeds to ask...then on top of that how the fuck you expect me to take you somewhere when you aint offering gas money? (now mind you folks...i dont ask for gas money unless i really need it. i am a helping person and all but dammit i had when i feel like i am being used...) so when i pulls up and she aint even ready...i mean how you gonna ask me to take you somewhere and when i pull up you not even ready? now mind you i had to be at work at 8 so i was tryin to get alot of shit done which was:

1. pay my friend for fixing my car
2. catch up with my childhood friend so i can fix her laptop
3. eat
4. have some chill time to myself before i goto work.

So she comes outside and she is all dressed...but her son was not?! i mean how is it that you can look good but you got your child out here with just a damn diper on? i know it was alil sunny outside but dammit if you gonna look decent make sure your damn seed is as well..

So i takes her to where she has to go. on the way back i am driving and the radio started to play some k. cole song...i turned the channel quick. the girl had the nerve to look at me with the mad look...i look at her like.."what?" she gonna tell me and i qoute her said "there is no in between with you" i am like whats that supposed to mean? she goes and says that "its either your happy or your just angry" i looked at her and i was honestly was about to stop the damn car and put her out. for one if you riding shotgun in someones car you dont have a say so on whats goes on...your job is to sit back and shut the fuck up maybe crack a few jokes until we get to your proper place lol. and did i mention you dont touch the radio....dammit everybody should know this!!!!

So after i dropped her off she states she is gonna give me 38 bucks on the 24th...watch my ass be at her doorstep acting like rick ross "where my money?" so i goes in her house and i am just sitting there...i didnt wanna get back in my car because i just didnt feel like wasting gas. so i guess she was trying to be nice and ask me did i want her to cook me something...HELL NO. for one i dont eat anybodys cooking. so i am just sitting there while she is doing her...reason why i was there is to stay in the area my childhood friend is so when she text me i can just jump in my car and dip out! however that never happened...so then i guess she was trying to put her kid to sleep...fooor what? i hope she think she trying to fuck? because that suuuuuuuure aint happening. why? i am gonna explain that down the road...So i guess after a hour pass and her son would not goto sleep i decided to dip...she wanted me to stay for what reason i dont know...( like eminem said " i gotta go bitch you know i stuff to do..")

So after i left there i proceed to goto the auto store to pick up some stuff like:
1. transmission fluid
2. power steering fluid

after i left there i made my way over to my old hood...brightmo (proper saying "brightmoore" lol)..now when i stayed in the hood of my it was pretty ruff when i grew up there..but dammit i wish i had my cam corder otherwise i would show you whats it like now...man houses there were good houses were....no houses....alot of burnt up houses...hell one of my friends house got cock tailed...and i saw my old house...i got alil depress seein my old house like that..windows all busted..the house looked like the trap forreal...i post the videos when i go thru there again...

So as i made my way thru my hood i went over my friends house to see what was up. i gets over there and i saw that no car was there...ok maybe his parents was gone...so as i starts to knock on the door some old dum white lady from across the street came outside asking me why am i there? and i told her in the nice way i am looking for my friend. she replies nasty saying " you know you aint supposed to be there.." i asked her "do they still stay here?" she replies "i am the watcher of that house and if you dont leave i am calling the police." i told her to just tell me if they still stay there...that white lady went in the house i jumped off that porch so fast hopped in my whip and burned rubber on her so fast it was not funny..(for those who do not know...the police WILL show up quickly if a white person calls in that hood)


So after that i got hungry i got me some mickey D's my friend called me up tell me where he was at so i can drop his money off to him...and what do u know...he was in BRIGHTMO! lmao i just left that hood...i am thinking to myself in gta wise damn i got two stars i aint tryin to be hot ya know? so i took side streets to where he was at. after i dropped his money off i went and got my haircut (as you can see in the pic above) after that i said fuck it aint nothing else to do so i got me something to eat and then proceeded to work...

Saturday comes...yay! i got my jordans! and they was ridin shotgun with me:



hell yea...my size sells out pretty quick so my black ass gotta get there pretty early...So after that i was gonna go over my friend E house to pick up the rest of my shoes i have there lol but he was knocked out so i said fuck it and dipped to the crib. however remember my dad tags on his plate expire so i ended up having to take the long way home..(those of you that are from the d know...) i had to take the lodge to I-75 and then i-75 to m-59 east and then to the crib...i ended up getting there pretty quick but it did feel long considering the fact i listend to the whole n.e.r.d album and the whole weezy album.

So i gets there and i put my shoes in the closet...and what do u know..my damn foot started itching again...i would take a pic of it but i aint...from what moms told me i was biten by a spider...i have a big goofy ass scab in the middle of my foot (sole) with alot of little bumps...that lil or big fucker got me good...but like rick james said "i got the remedy for that" lmao. i put some cream on that and iced it down and its slowly going away...hopefully i shall be spiderman soon and save the day and get my black version of mary jane lol.

so since i had all this free time on my hands (due to my moms getting a new car) i ended up cleaning my room. so things for today were:

1. goto my friends child birthday party

So i just chilled at home and cleaned my room...my mom got a new book rack and she gave me her old one...and what did i do with it? look...lol:



So looks like i got even MORE room for shoes for the rest of the summer :D...so after i did that i tried to clean the room up but failed due to me being tired...(maybe the spidey sense kickin in) so i was knocked out. i woke up hours later and i worked on part of a video i was supposed to make awhile ago...my mom got her car and her job gave her the whole day off...So after hours passed i got dress so she could take me up to jeepers to i can visit.

man what do u know...my mom ends up losing her keys!!!! maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan we spent well they..i was knocked out in the car for a while before i started looking lol...she ended up finding them but that took a big goofy chunk out of the time frame i was working with..i at least wanted to chill up there for at least 30 minutes and then dip to work. but i was only there for a hot ass ten minutes...when i got there i was looking for my friend...since i was really late i am thinking (fuck they gone noooooooooooo!) but out of the blue i see the biggest perfect smile look up from the corner see me (i dont know how she spotted me) but i met her and i gave her a hug...(now mind you...i know her from sneakerplay...she is cool beans so this is like me seeing her in person for the first time i talked to her on the phone alot but she does tat's so she is a busy woman and thats a good thing..she makin her doe) so i gives her the birthday card dam man i aint gonna lie..here i am at this party i just couldnt stop lookin at her...i'm like damn...let me kick myself in shen real quick...after i came back to square one she lets me see her daughter...like most children when they first meet a new face they will give you that look...(EVERYBODY knows that look..that looks sayin "who are you? you are funny looking look lol) so i chatted with her here and there before i left. as i was walking i am still amazedon how fine that girl was IN PERSON damn her pics...in person in HD is better lmao.

So after we left there my mom dropped my sister off at her bestfriends house...i ended up getting a plate and headed to work..So here i am thinking...alot..i finally met her (long over do i was supposed to goto her birthday party but i had to work) and i am overthinking this but should i attempt to talk to her on "that" level? we damn near like the same things:

1. she likes to make money
2. she has her mind on str8
3. she is a sneaker girl (and thats a plus for me :D )
4. she likes videogames

Thats just some i can think of on the top of my head...now alot of people who knows me gonna say..what about the kid D? Well i were to attempt to get on i wont just be talking to her...i would have to accept that. which i am willing. because for 1..she aint like my ex who had the twins..and 2. sneakerhead girl (yup thats what i'm calling her on here) is I.N.D.E.P.E.N.D.E.N.T do u know what that means?

i hate feeling like i am thinking to hard on somebody i like...it sucks..because then if i dont do anything i could of had a chance...i hate when i like somebody i have that certain feeling in me...its like my whole swag changes or some shit..not that its a bad thing but however its just different.

I figure i would type this here rather than facebook...because the cat will be out the bag then..however some people do read this and i know that the message will get to her lol..

ok back to work i go...even though i aint doing nothing. peace.