hmm things just don't feel the same anymore...why? I honesty don't know...for some reason a nigga just feels left out. I make plans and they never fall thru...I wanna hang but everybody just some how aint got shit todo when I wanna have fun...but when a nigga gotta work oh yall partying now...I see how it is with people now days..I know who my real friends are and I can count that on both hands...

I feel used:
honesty I do...for damn near everything...I don't mind lending a helping hand when needed but shit u can only help people so much. I hate when people just only hit me up when they need help or when ladies call me with there man issues..honestly im sick of it...I aint dr phil so yall need to just fall back. when db needs help where are u people (the people that helped me knows what they did so they aint in this one) when I need to talk where yall at...yall treat me like I am the enemy or something...and dammit id had enough.

why do most people remember all my failures in life but don't wanna give me props when a nigga do good? the fuck is that? where's the love? I bounce back quick from all my failure and I still get hate...and this is from family members as well!!! every time I come to a family gathering they are quick to talk about all my fuck ups around everybody...but they never talk about how I turned all those negatives into positives...I hate that....

I aint done I typed this from my mobile

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Then people wonder why i dont really go near certain family members...they fake! i mean forreal...they will smile in your face but as soon as you leave that room or house...then its nothing but hate....fucked up aint it? yup so if (some family members) wonder why i dont call or attempt to hang out with you guys....you now know why...hate for it to be that way but..it is what it is...

Is it really bad to get your life somewhat together? i mean damn...like i stated in my last note when i was broke as a joke (still somewhat after shoes and payin tickets lol) yall would fuck with me...now i'm gettin alil cake yall dont wanna mess with me...i'm still me..i didnt change...aint nothing change but my mindset on how i see things..thats it. nothing else..is it wrong for me to get my life together? is it wrong that i decided to grow the fuck up and stop all the foolish games? i aint best person in the world but damn.

ima leave it with that. because the more i type the more pissed off ima get.