ok so i lied...it somewhat got better. (kinda)

Reason why i say kinda is because micheal jackson pasted away this week.

I'v been alil sad by this tragic event. i mean who woulda ever though that MJ would past this early in his life? this is MJ were talking about here! its like honesty i would thought he would of past away in his 90s and stuff. but 50? wow....thats something else.



I grew up listening to his music. from dancing,moonwalkin,holdin my nuts (lol),and singing, hell i used to rent his game all the time from rent-a-flick and always racked up tons of late fees..(still dont know why i just never bought the game instead of renting it lol) and lets not forget about the movie moonwalker. anybody that REALLY knows me knows back in the day i used to watch that movie like it was porn or someshit. Mike was that deal..even though i listened to rap i would listen to MJ first. i remember when i used to download his music videos and study all of his dance moves...i still know them moves til this day...(i just dont do them in public lmao.) i remember when i went to cedar point last year with my co-workers and they had thriller playin and i just started doing the dance off rip...from bad,beat it, thriller, and smooth criminal..one of my favorite videos was billie jean and leave me alone and speed demon.




Point blank i will qoute Mrs. Hawkins when i said this but " he is gonna be bigger now in death than he was alive." and thats a true statement. he will be missed. even though he had some legal issues thats besides the point. fuck the media for always trying to bring his legal issues in before talking about how he touched so many peoples lives...etc.i dont care what anyone says...before he pasted...you can go in the hood and i am willing to bet you that your most known tuff guy likes MJ. everywhere you go there is a MJ fan.


Point blank he was the best that ever did it. no one will ever come close to what he has ever did. he is the king of pop. R.I.P MJ :( and this pic kinda made me laugh when i saw it on one of my friends facebook page.


Now...after i found out that MJ passed i was hurt. but that still does not mean i have to get shit done...on that day i went and played some videogames...due to the fact that mj died it was RAINING HARD AS HELL! i guess that was the cloud crying :( that happen when marshon pasted away too.

I get there and it was some people from the tournament. i was playing street fighter 4...i was rusty as hell. i could not get into a groove or nothing. i was getting murked by people i beat on a regular :( i guess thats what happens when you dont play for a week or two lol.

ended up staying there til 9 and went back to fai's house...chilled with her until i went to go get my stuff from my soon to be Ex. house. So at 11 i sent her a text telling her that i was gonna be coming to get my stuff. i get over there and she gives me my things and i proceed to dip. she wanted to talk. so i said fuck it. i ended up breaking up with her on the spot. never did that before...in a mature way at that. normally it will be a "fuck you bitch its over!" but i broke up with her and told her why. and ima tell you why i broke up with her.

I pretty much broke up with her because she likes to hide shit from me. THATS SOME SHIT I REALLY FUCKING HATE. its like if i am being open and honest with you how come you cant do the same for me? i would say like two months ago. she had some pictures stored on her phone. now i didnt go thru her phone looking for these pics...she ended up slipping up and i saw them. i dont see how you have a g1 and these pictures just so happen to pop up on your phone. with g1's you have to manually put them pictures on there (drag and drop.)...so when i saw a quick glance of someone with no shirt and thats light skinned i asked who it was and she tried didnt wanna tell me. which i belive was some complete bullshit. because if the shoe was on the other foot all hell would of broke loose.

So after 30 minutes of arguing she shows me the pictures....do you know that she ended up fucking one of my teachers from everest? yea yall...she fucked one of my teachers....the same cat i hooped with. and the same cat who got me in at the job i work today! she said this shit was before me but i was not trying to hear that shit. the fact that she was NEVER gonna tell me was on some total disrespectful shit. shits foul man...

So i told her that shit. and from what she said is pretty much she was never gonna tell me anyway....meaning.. i woulda been looking like a fucking fool if i was to ever go up there with her and to go see him....knowing they know whats going on and i am all in the dark and shit....FUCK THAT!

*****a tip to the fellas....when you bout to brake up with someone make sure you dont have sex with them or any sexual shit. thats what i do. dont want know slip ups ;) *****


So i broke that shit off....nextel | done cant be with someone who hides shit. if she would been honest and told me up front i would of never fucked with her in the first place...So anywho i ended up getting my shit and goes back to fai's house. she was all knocked out and shit lol..told her what happend and she thought i was sad when i was not...

i get to work and everybody says i look happier..like i let a load off my back. i know why i am happy...:)

Maaan...such a bad week. and i feel its gonna be even worst as well.

The last few days have been pretty bad...this week Question is "why do all the weird stuff happen to me?"

Ok ima break down on whats been going on.

Tuesday - Something just was not feeling right. all that day i just sat at home and play some videogames. since my little brother is out of school i figured i'll play some COD4 with him and his friends. LOL that crap was funny. i think they learned their lession when me and my little bro team up ;)

As the day progressed i talked on the phone with friends and such. watched as my little brother practice in street fighter 4. that was interesting...but for the most part i was supposed take a trip to the D so i can chill with some friends but i was just so f'n lazy! like something was telling me to not go yet. i was just stallin and everything.

So i get on the freeway and i start driving over fai's house. while i was driving i noticed my indash light were really low....so i kept driving and was pretty aware of what was going on. i gets off the freeway while on the phone. as soon as i got off the phone....car just shuts off! i managed to get the car on a street. i get out and i look under the hood to see if anything was noticeable...

As i am texting fai and people about what happen a jewish person offers to give me a boost. I myself was surprised he even offered to help. but he didnt know how to get to his battery in his van :( another jewish guy saw us and wanted to jump start my car. my car was not doing nothing :( So after like five minutes passed ANOTHER jewish person came. he tried to jump it but no luck.

i get in the car and i noticed i didnt have the car in park...wow....once he heard it click he jump started the ride and i was good to go! buy then fai pulled up and i ended up having to ride behind her...

WEDNESDAY - After getting my car to her place i was tired as shit. stayed up alil bit and read a very interesting book. i read that book until i was tired as shit and went to sleep. Fai had her window cracked open because it was hot in there. now anybody who knows me if i am gonna spend the night at your house ima bring some shorts lol. SO..The next morning fai wakes me up asking me have i seen her phone. her phone was right there on the wall on the charger. we flipped that room inside out. i just so happen to look outside the window and noticed that the window was open wide open. when i told her that she alreayd knew who did it. thru the night her fucking baby daddy broke in through the window (like broke the screen,and broke the lock on the window) and took her phone....

She was PISSED! we were supposed to goto this class on how to write a business plan. So while she was on my phone telling people what happend she told me to just take her car and just go and tape it. i comes back in the room....MY PANTS IS GONE! this nigga stole my pants!!!! which means i have no ID,SSN no CAR KEYS!!!!

So now i am pissed...nigga got me for my jeans....but at least nothing else was stolen...my laptop was there,sf4 arcade stick, and some clothes and some shoes...So we ended up not going to the class or doing ANYTHING.

Fai and her friends tried to get in touch with his other baby momma but i guess her dumb ass is too blind to see what he does...So they just kept trying other ways to try and get in touch with this jerk.

I called my mom and told her what happen. called my dad and told him what happend as well and he just had nothing but jokes lol.

Friday - Ended up getting wrote up for what happend on saturday....So now i cant miss another day or be really late...they ended up sending me home for the rest of the day and was paid for it as well. i had to return to work with a letter stating if i wanted to continue to work there or what not. i didnt write that damn letter until i got to work saturday. did a google search and found a template and changed it up and bam. done....i honesty hate my job. thats why i am in the looks for a new one...


So my week has been fuuuuuuuuucked up. and next week i have a feeling its gonna ger worst. happy bday DAD!

Str8 up?

i freaking hate yesterday....my day was going soooo goood...until i signed onto facebook and seen this shit.

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So...the girlfriend dicided to put our business out on facebook. tagged at least 4 people i know...and you know when you tag someone everybody and damn momma can see that shit. This shit made me so fuckin mad i honesty didnt wanna talk to her none yesterday. why? because i coulda thought that we agreed to NOT put shit like this on facebook or anywhere...So since she wants to do this would i be wrong if i aired out all the fucked up shit that i've been exposed too about her? in most eyes yea...to dumb niggas...no lol...

So all that day i made sure i only talked to her through google talk. i didnt wanna speak to her because if i did i woulda cussed her ass out point blank. now i got everybody and they damn momma bout to ask me "whats wrong with yall? or maaan yall will be str8"...

So the whole day i went and chilled my my friend faizah and her son. ALL DAY. soon as i got off work thats were i went. its peaceful there in my eyes...to anybody that tried to call me and got sent to the damn voicemail sorry...just didnt feel like talking to anybody...hell i didnt even tell fai what was going on. she would been mad too lol.

Her son's birthday is today and yesterday we went to go get some juice from the store because he is supposed to be hangin out all day. So we get into wal-mart and she just went crazy on buying all these damn juices lol. she bought some other shit and after we left we went to her moms house...

Mrs. Hawkins knows me well like she knows KT. she thinks we are alike lol hell...zena and faizah thinks the samething lol. I like how everytime i go over there its ALWAYS something to talk about. and yesterdays topic of day was "crazy women and there sneaky ways.." lmao....that convo went pretty well...we talked about some other stuff until it was time to go...her son had to goto the movies for his friends birthday so we dipped back to the crib to drop off some milk and icecream and shit....

We get back to her place and come to find out they were not going lol. fai was pissed lmao. i could see why though...because we were having a pretty interesting talk with her moms and then left and to find out they were not going. So we just chilled at the crib until they came through...they ended up leaving late as hell and we were like damn...we coulda went downtown to the dia with her moms and shit...chilled there and just watched movies...i wanted to play my nintendo wii but i was afraid as soon as i was about to cut that thing on the kids were gonna rush in asking to play....and dammit what do you know...it happend...:(

i ended up letting them play wii music and just chilled out...i had to work at 4:30 in the morning and my ass should been sleep. i fucking stayed up to like 2-2:30 and just blacked out....fucking battery died so now alarm to wake me up and i freaking overslept!!! 2 hours.....i'm here now mad as fuck about that :( well thursday i know ima get a wrote up for this :( no escaping this one :(.

So DeeDogg is getting better from the looks of things.

After a long stressful week at my job i was glad and ready that the weekend came because:

1. final monthly for street fighter IV
2. Not gonna see my manager
3. Hang around my friends and family.
4. go to my bro harrison party.


So looks like i get to have my mind at ease...The day before the tournament i decided i was NOT gonna play street fighter. reason why is because the last time i did this in the gamestop tourney i ended up going all the way to the finals. So i decided not to play street fighter...i we to fai house and help jai with his homework and play nintendo wii! (he's been begging me to bring it for the longest lol) i got a text on friday that my boy brandon ( now known as b.masters) will not make it to the tourney due to him working. twan texted me to see if he could roll with me so i didnt care. saturday came and i came and scooped him up and we went to the tournament.



we finally get there and we was already at crowd! the were having there casuals and what not and i just watched. this one dude there was using seth and he was GOOD. seen some stuff i never see done with seth period...first thing that game to my head was...maaan i hope i dont have to fight him in the singles lol. because he was running a clinc on them peoples..lol



So bout 30 minutes passed and i went upstairs and text my gf to tell her whats going on...from the looks of things she was alil mad? because i didnt tell her i was going to a tournament that i goto every month? chea....ok...whatever...ANYWAY. after that i text my boy KT to tell him i am bout to enter this tourney after that i went down stairs...(i was outside because downstairs there is no signal down there)


So i get down stairs and the teams starts...me and twan teamed up once again So we can get this money. last time we got 3rd. but we want first. our match was first. twan played first just in case i lose my match. twan ended up losing his match!!!! So now the pressure was on me (mind you if i lose we goto str8 to the losers) i ended up playing a gen...i freaking hate gen just for the simple fact that some jerk on boxden plays with him in a cheesy way....So we started playing and i saw that cross up coming....i did whatever in my power to gnot get crossed up in that mess...it came down to the final match...i freaking went for broke. gen had me beat. for some odd reason he threw a low fierce while i was down and all you heard from guile was "GOING!" i ended up winning that round. i had to stay on the sticks and play twan opponent.

It was Reddevilninja...we go way back...i used to always play him a vdo at the butterfly and i used to play Reddevilninja on xbox live as well so i know for a fact that he is not gonna lighten up on me. he picked abel i pick BALROG. this was the first time i get to really test my balrog because i am so used to beating up random bums online. and my ROG was rusty because i was nervous...once Reddevilninja won one round.... i changed my style of play and thought about what kamal said after round two kamal said that i get more so nervous of who i play rather then just playing the game. So i just played....and i won! even tho i messed a couple of combos i manage to get us into the next round.

Second match we had we breezed through that. twan one his and i had to face a balrog player...i went with....HONDA! i used him pretty well seeing i have not played with him in over a month..i was str8 clowing with em. hell i was even creating some set ups lol short headbutt into a onichi throw hahaha never done that before lol. so we ended up winning that set.

next set was agaist that seth dude and another player who played with a pad (like brandon) that dude was nice...he beat twan (twan used honda) so i ended up having to fight the seth player....that freakin dude made a damn combo video out of me the first round i wont even lie...i had to change the style of play the second wrong and put a mean whoopin on him. final match came and it was down to the last draw...i get REALLY really REALLY when i am in a tournament and we down to the last draw i jumped up and got hit by seths long arm attack and loss...the crowd was like AWWWWWWWWWWWWW...afterward they were giving me daps telling me to ex flash kick.

No now we in the losers...we breezed thru that..twan stepped his game up and got us into the finals agaist the seth team again....i didnt do really good that time but i was hanging in there. we ended up losing. we got second place though! i was happy. after that twan and i and a couple of other gamers decided to go get something to eat.



So we ended up going to a coney island...and chilled there...as we walking in i saw a sushi bar!!!! my greedy ass...it was pretty cool hangin with other people who play videogames...they wer some fools....tell me why twan wanted some chocolate milk?!?!? and then this other dude came in a wanted the same! wow....that was so random to me...

i ended up ordering me a damn corn beef....and then went to the sushi bar and order some shrimp tempra rolls...didnt eat them there just waited til we got back to the place and just sat and watched people play and eat. everybody was asking me "wow dude where did you get those from!!! i want some!!!" i just told them "i came out of here....made a left went to the corner and made another left and walked across the street and i saw this place. lol i think they though i was being a smartass until i showed them the business card lol.

Singles started and i was just winning...i made it all the up to the Qtr finals and loss...went to the loser bracket and ended up losing to a bison that i beat before...i had rog...shoulda picked guile lol...Twan ended up winning the whole thing again...that last match he had agaist that seth dude was str8 epic..

after that we all left and twan gave me props on well i played...after that i had to shoot him to the crib because i was late for harrisons party...went to his party and had a blast and got alil drunk too at the last minute lol...i'm so cool...

ima get the videos soon so yall can see the matches....stay safe and stay cool.

oh yea....dont this shit looks like a dick? we saw this and was crackin up

man oh man....business plan time...

maaaaaaaaaaaaan this business plan crap is no joke!!! seeing that i already knew that it was not going to be a walk in the park...i honesty didnt know i needed soooo much damn information!!! its like a book in itself!!!

but i managed to find me a working copy of business plan pro 2007. two of my co-workers told me about this so i looked into that...i get the software and this crap makes no sense to me at all!!!! i think i said this in one of my old post but business plans are pretty much a hypothesis in itself. i talked to my Mr. Hawkins about it and he even informed me that its not a walk in the park....

So looks like i think ima sign up for a class because reading about doing your own business is not enough....i just need alil more information so i can get this up and started.