Still Moving

 Lately, I have been struggling.

Not in a dramatic way. Not in a woe is me way. Just honestly struggling to balance everything that has been piling up at once.

I was supposed to have content out already for this upcoming event. I had the plans. I had the structure. But the motivation just has not been there. Part of that is because we got hit with some bad news recently, news I am not ready to talk about yet. On top of that, I am still recovering physically and mentally from being sick, and I am realizing now that recovery does not end just because your body starts functioning again.

That is the part that messes with your head.

When you are trying to change for the better. When you are putting systems in place. When you are actually doing the work and still feel like things are falling apart, it makes you start questioning yourself. I get these thoughts sometimes, and I am tired of them. Especially when, on paper, things are going well.

I recently had a long conversation with my mom about support, or the lack of it. About how transactional some relationships feel. About how that cuts deeper than people realize. Sometimes it feels like people did not expect me to get this far or did not take what I was building seriously until it was already standing. Maybe that is part of growth. Realizing that not everyone who knows you is equipped to support the version of you that is evolving.

As this business grows, I am learning that I have to be more aware. More forward thinking. I have to spot problems before they become problems. That realization hit hard recently and forced me to sit with some uncomfortable truths. One of the biggest lessons I am learning is that I cannot please everyone. Trying to do that only pulls me further away from myself.

I miss texts sometimes. I miss notifying people about things. Not out of disrespect, but because my focus is locked in on building something sustainable. This structure is still new to me. I did not wake up one day perfectly organized with everything balanced. I am learning as I go. With structure comes expectation. People notice when you miss something, and sometimes they hold it against you, even when there is no bad intent.

Right now, my morale is low. My confidence took a hit. A lot of it traces back to what happened while I was in Ethiopia.

I do not say this lightly. Getting sick over there changed me.

Physically, I am better. Mentally, it did something to me that I am still unpacking. It was terrifying. I genuinely felt like my life was at risk. If my fiancee and her mom had not acted as fast as they did, I do not know how things would have turned out. That experience shook me in ways I do not think people always understand or know how to respond to, so I do not try to explain it much anymore.

Despite that, I want to be clear. Ethiopia was beautiful. The people were kind. The hospitality was unmatched. That experience does not change how I feel about the place. It just marked a turning point for me personally.

Since then, I have noticed I am more on edge. More impatient with wasted time. More sensitive to setbacks. My sleep is still off. I wake up at odd hours. I am rebuilding routines that used to feel automatic. I am trying to give myself grace while still holding myself accountable.

Pivoting is part of growth. It is not failure. It means you saw something that was not working and chose to adjust instead of standing still. Some people will understand that. Some will not. Either way, movement matters more than approval.

Right now, I am figuring out how to pull myself out of this slump. How to regain momentum without pretending everything is fine. Near life ending experiences change you. They strip away illusions. When that happens, rebuilding yourself takes time.

This is where I am at.

Thanks for reading.

Stop Asking for Free Shit. It’s Ghetto.

So, since my sleep schedule is way the hell off after getting back from Ethiopia, I figured I might as well address something that has been bothering me for a while.

Why do some people think they are entitled to free shit?

Seriously, what does that do for me? How does giving my product away for free help my business? And do not say promotion, because if you buy it and wear it, you are promoting it just the same.

I get very annoyed when people ask me for free stuff. If your idea of support is asking me to give you something for nothing, then respectfully, I do not want your support. That might sound harsh as hell, but someone has to say it.

I have invested a lot of money into my business. Time. Energy. Meetings. Emails. Manufacturing. Planning. Stress. So when someone who has not purchased a single item asks for free product, I take that as disrespectful. People really think running a clothing brand is easy. Trust me, it is not. There is a lot that goes into this that nobody sees.

Can y'all at least wait until I hit a million first?
Alright, a million is wild, lets say 100k.

And no, that is not an invitation to start asking me for free shit when I hit 100k either. But damn, the begging needs to stop. That shit is ghetto. How am I supposed to grow when people are constantly asking me to give everything away?

That is not support. That is enabling. And I am not in the business of enabling.

So let me be clear. Stop with the guilt trips. Stop with the "I can promote this for you" angles. I see the game, and it irritates me every time.

I dealt with the same issue when I started photography. People wanted free shoots or wanted to pay me like I was the photoman. And when I say "photoman," what I really mean is cheap, undervalued, and not respected. I did not spend thousands of dollars on equipment for someone to offer me $ 75 to $ 150 for a shoot. If that is the budget, go to the photoman, not me.

I am not the photoman.
I am not the shoeman.
I am not the clothesman.

I am not that guy, and I refuse to let people treat me like that just because I did not take the same routes they did to get where I am.

Everybody has a hustle, but you are not about to hustle me.

You can pay for Buffs? You can buy a tee.
You can cop purple jeans? You can afford Double B's.

My shit is quality over here, and I stand on that. I do not run a cheap home setup, printing shirts in the basement. No disrespect at all to anyone getting it out of the mud that way, that is just not my route. I am big on quality.

I work with manufacturers. My products are made from scratch. Materials matter. Construction matters. Longevity matters. Because y'all are not about to pay 55 dollars for a tee just for the print to start peeling after a few washes. Fuck no. I will not put my name on that, and I will not sell anything I would not wear myself.

So when people ask why I do not just give shit away, this is why. Too much work. Too much intention. Too much pride goes into what I make.

For example, I am dropping tote bags next month, and I can already hear it now. The asking. The guilt tripping. Then, you know, we go way back.

If I give anything away, it will be to my paying customers as a thank you for their support. Not because we are family. Not because we have known each other forever. That kind of support is dead to me.

All I am asking for is respect. Respect for my business. Respect for my work. I built this shit, and I refuse to let anyone, friends or family, try to guilt-trip me into giving them something they do not want to pay for.

That is enabling behavior, and I do not fuck with it.

Anyway,

We have an event coming up on February 28th. Bold Basics The Reveal. I will have merch on hand, and the tote bags will be available for purchase.

Hope to see you there.
Details below.

15725 Grand River Ave., Detroit, MI
Saturday, Feb 28, from 1 pm to 4 pm EST
Get tickets here

Final Assessment Reflection on Information Technology and Computer Science

 As I reflect on this course, it's clear that my understanding of information technology (IT) and computer science has deepened significantly. Throughout the journey, I’ve gained a solid grasp of how computers have become fundamental to the modern world. Whether it's the integration of technology into various industries or the ever-growing demand for skilled professionals in fields such as cybersecurity and network administration, it’s evident that technology is at the core of nearly every career.

One of the key takeaways from this course is the critical role of hardware and software in enabling computing systems to function efficiently. Learning about the intricacies of CPUs, memory, storage, and operating systems has given me a better appreciation for how these components work together to perform essential tasks. The course also emphasized the importance of networking and the protocols that allow computers to communicate, which directly ties into my interest in cybersecurity.

A specific tech topic that caught my attention was network security. This concept connects seamlessly with the fundamentals of IT and computer science that we covered, particularly regarding protecting sensitive information and maintaining the integrity of systems. From discussions on securing networks through firewalls and encryption to understanding vulnerabilities like phishing and password cracking, this course made it clear how vital it is to stay vigilant and proactive in the face of cyber threats.

Looking ahead, I am excited to continue expanding on these foundational concepts. As technology evolves, so do the challenges and opportunities within the field. The knowledge I’ve gained here will serve as a crucial stepping stone in my pursuit of a career in cybersecurity, where the blend of technical skills and problem-solving will allow me to protect systems and data in an increasingly connected world.

As I review my peers' posts, I look forward to seeing how they’ve interpreted these concepts and applied them to their own experiences. This course has been a valuable experience, providing a solid foundation to build upon as I continue my education in information technology and computer science.

Week. 2 journal blog

 Today was an exciting and enjoyable day, filled with a mix of routine and special activities. Here's a breakdown of how my day unfolded:

Morning Routine:

I woke up at 7:30 AM and quickly got dressed. By 8:00 AM, I was out of the house, beating the downtown traffic to make it to work on time.

Work:

The morning was dedicated to my regular work tasks. I focused on resolving IT issues and providing support, ensuring everything ran smoothly at the office.

Lunch Break:

Around noon, I took a short break for lunch. I grabbed a quick bite to eat and took a moment to relax before heading back to work.

Afternoon Work:

The afternoon was productive as I wrapped up some projects and prepared for the upcoming week. It felt great to check off items from my to-do list.

Heading Home:

After finishing work, I made my way back home. The traffic wasn't too bad, so I arrived in good time.

Gaming Session:

Once home, I spent some time playing my favorite video games. It's always a great way to unwind after a busy day at work.

DJing Practice:

Later, I practiced DJing, experimenting with new mixes and beats. It's a creative outlet that I really enjoy and helps me relax.

Clothing Brand Work:

I also dedicated some time to working on my clothing brand. I reviewed some designs and brainstormed ideas for new collections.

Evening Out:

In the evening, my girlfriend and I decided to visit Six Flags. We had an amazing time exploring the park, riding roller coasters, and enjoying the attractions.

Reflection:

Spending the day with my girlfriend at Six Flags was awesome. It was a perfect mix of fun and adventure, and we both had a great time. The day ended on a high note, filled with laughter and joy.

Overall, today was a fantastic day. I managed to balance work, hobbies, and personal time effectively. Looking forward to more days like this!

The Child Support System: Evaluating Fairness and Its Impact on Men's Mental Health

 The child support system stands as a pillar of our society, designed with noble intentions to safeguard the well-being of children, ensuring that they receive the financial support they need. It's a system that many consider essential to promoting the best interests of the youngest members of our society. However, beneath the veneer of good intentions lies a complex landscape filled with challenges and nuances, especially when it comes to its perceived fairness, which, for many men, has become a subject of concern.

This essay delves into the multifaceted realm of the child support system, where we examine the perception of fairness and its potential consequences, particularly for the mental health of men who find themselves navigating this intricate terrain. While child support is undeniably crucial for securing the financial stability of children, it is equally imperative to evaluate whether the system is equitable for all parties involved. In doing so, we cannot ignore the growing body of evidence that suggests a troubling link between child support issues and the mental well-being of fathers who are striving to fulfill their responsibilities.

In the following pages, we will first provide an overview of the child support system, shedding light on its objectives and mechanisms. We will then explore the challenges faced by men who actively care for their children and find themselves entangled in the web of child support obligations. As we move forward, we will delve into the emotional and psychological toll that this system can take on men, discussing instances of depression, anxiety, and stress that often accompany their journeys.

Furthermore, we will examine the connection between child support issues and the alarming risk of suicidal ideation among men, emphasizing the need to address this critical concern. This essay will advocate for the inclusion of mental health support and resources within the child support system, aiming to assist both custodial and non-custodial parents, who often bear the weight of these obligations.

In a fair and compassionate society, the child support system must be administered in a manner that upholds the welfare of children while also recognizing the mental health and well-being of all individuals involved. Striking this balance is paramount, and as we conclude this exploration, we will underscore the need for reforms that foster a more equitable and supportive environment within the child support system.

As we embark on this journey, it becomes evident that the child support system, while undeniably important, is not without its challenges and potential pitfalls. It is our collective responsibility to ensure that this system aligns with our values of fairness and empathy, extending its care not only to the children it serves but also to the men who seek to fulfill their parental obligations, often in the face of overwhelming challenges.  

The child support system, rooted in the principle of providing financial support for children, plays a crucial role in ensuring their well-being. Established with noble intentions, it aims to guarantee that children receive the financial resources they need to thrive, even in situations where parents are separated or divorced. The system typically operates through court orders, ensuring that non-custodial parents contribute financially to the upbringing of their children.  The primary objective of the child support system is to secure the financial stability of children. This is achieved through various mechanisms, including court orders.  

 Family courts typically issue child support orders, outlining the financial obligations of non-custodial parents. These orders are legally binding and require regular payments.  Child support obligations are often determined based on the income of the non-custodial parent. Courts use formulas that take into account income, the number of children, and other relevant factors. Child support agencies are responsible for enforcing court-ordered child support payments. They have the authority to collect payments through various means, including wage garnishment and asset seizure.

While the system's objectives are clear and commendable, it is essential to examine how it functions in practice and whether it achieves its goals without causing undue burden or harm to any party involved.  The child support system, while designed to provide for children's well-being, often poses challenges and complexities for men who actively care for their children. These challenges can vary, but they frequently revolve around the following areas:

A. Custody and Visitation Arrangements - One of the initial challenges that many fathers face in the child support process pertains to custody and visitation arrangements. Disputes over custody can be emotionally charged, and visitation schedules can sometimes be contentious. Men who desire an active role in their children's lives may find themselves in lengthy legal battles to secure the custody arrangements they believe are in the best interest of their children.

B. Financial Burdens and Payment Obligations - The financial obligations imposed by child support orders can also be a source of significant strain for non-custodial fathers. These obligations often demand a substantial portion of their income, which can affect their ability to meet their own financial needs, such as housing, healthcare, and basic living expenses. For some, these obligations may lead to financial instability.

C. Communication and Dispute Resolution - Effective communication between co-parents is essential for smooth child support arrangements. However, strained relationships, misunderstandings, and disagreements can hinder communication. Disputes regarding child support payments or other matters can escalate, leading to further emotional distress for all parties involved.  

Navigating the intricate and often adversarial child support system can take a toll on men's mental health. The emotional and psychological burdens they face can be overwhelming, leading to various mental health challenges:

A. Depression - Men entangled in the child support system may experience feelings of hopelessness and despair. The financial strain and legal battles can contribute to symptoms of depression, affecting their overall well-being.

B. Anxiety - The uncertainty surrounding child support payments, custody arrangements, and ongoing disputes can lead to heightened anxiety. Men may constantly worry about meeting their financial obligations and maintaining their relationships with their children.

C. Stress - The chronic stress associated with child support issues can have far-reaching consequences. It can impact physical health, relationships, and overall quality of life. Stress-related health problems may further exacerbate the situation.  

One of the most alarming aspects of the impact of the child support system on men's mental health is the link to suicidal ideation. Research suggests that men facing overwhelming child support burdens may be at a heightened risk of experiencing thoughts of self-harm or suicide.  Studies, such as those conducted by mental health professionals and researchers, have highlighted a concerning correlation between child support issues and suicidal ideation among men. These studies often reveal that the stressors associated with child support disputes, financial strain, and feelings of helplessness can contribute to increased rates of suicidal thoughts.  Recognizing this connection is vital for addressing the issue effectively. It underscores the importance of providing mental health support and resources within the child support system to assist fathers who may be struggling with their mental well-being.  

One of the central issues within the child support system is the fairness of the financial burden placed on non-custodial parents, often fathers. Many argue that fathers should not have to give up 30% or more of their income, while the court does not hold mothers accountable for obtaining a job to contribute to child support. To address this concern and promote fairness, reforms are necessary.  Reforms should consider the income imbalance between custodial and non-custodial parents. Courts should assess each parent's financial situation and base child support obligations on their respective incomes, ensuring that the burden is proportionate and fair.  

To promote shared parental responsibility, reforms should also focus on encouraging both parents to contribute to child support. This could involve providing opportunities and incentives for non-custodial parents to actively participate in their children's lives and share financial responsibilities. A balanced approach must hold both parents accountable for employment and financial contributions when appropriate. This accountability should be applied without gender bias, recognizing that both mothers and fathers may have career responsibilities.  

While advocating for reforms and support services, it is essential to maintain a balanced approach to child support. The welfare of children remains a paramount concern, and the system must continue to fulfill its primary objective. However, achieving this goal should not come at the expense of the mental health and well-being of the parents, particularly fathers who are committed to fulfilling their parental obligations.  

Efforts to reform the child support system should aim to strike a balance between ensuring children's financial stability and considering the financial capacity and mental health of non-custodial parents. Equitable solutions must be pursued, considering the unique circumstances of each family. A balanced approach also entails a child-centered focus, where the best interests of the child are central. This includes promoting healthy relationships between children and both parents and ensuring that financial support serves the child's needs without causing undue hardship to the paying parent.  

In conclusion, the child support system plays an essential role in safeguarding the financial well-being of children in separated or divorced families. However, it is equally crucial to address the challenges faced by men within this system, as these challenges can have profound effects on their mental health. The emotional and psychological toll of navigating the child support system can result in depression, anxiety, and stress for many fathers. Furthermore, the concerning link between child support issues and an increased risk of suicidal ideation underscores the urgency of addressing this issue comprehensively. Reforms that prioritize mental health support services and promote mediation and conflict resolution can significantly alleviate the emotional distress faced by parents. 

Balancing the system to ensure fairness for all parties involved while maintaining a child-centered focus is essential for creating a more equitable and compassionate child support system.  In a society that values fairness, empathy, and the well-being of children, it is our collective responsibility to address the challenges posed by the child support system. By doing so, we can create an environment where responsible parents, including fathers, can fulfill their obligations without sacrificing their mental health or well-being.  It is time to move toward a child support system that truly serves the best interests of all involved, promoting financial stability for children while supporting the mental health and overall welfare of parents who strive to provide for their families.  As we strive for this balance, let us remember that it is not merely a matter of policy but a reflection of our values as a compassionate and fair society.

References

1. Lin, I-Fen. "Perceived Fairness and Compliance with Child Support Obligations." Journal of Marriage and Family, Vol. 62, No. 2, 2000, pp. 388-398.

2. Kim, Yoona, and Daniel R. Meyer. "Perceptions of Fair Treatment and Child Support." Institute for Research on Poverty, University of Wisconsin–Madison.

3. Rivlin, Ram. "Fairness in Allocations of Parental Responsibilities, and the Limits of Law." Cambridge University Press, Published online on June 5, 2020.

Here's what i think about the Canon EOS R after seven months.

Now ive had this camera for a good 7 months and i will first all state that this camera is a beast! Now i was NOT paid to use this camera like other content creators I went in the store and bought it like a normal person. When i got the Camera it also came with a 24-105 F4 lens and i will say me using that lens is pretty dope! What impressed me about that kit lens was the silent auto focus...it was actually pretty sharp for a kit lens!. Now they have came out with other RF lenes and i have yet to buy one yet because lets be real here...they are expensive as hell. Price ranges 2-3 thousand dollars per lens! the next lens i would buy for this camera is the 35mm 1.8 RF lol its well within my current price range for what i would like to pay for a lens right now. Battery: The Battery on this camera is pretty cool...i think you get a least 3-500 shots out of one battery which is fine. The battery that it uses is the LP-E6n, the same battery as the Canon 5D Mark IV. I tried using my older batteries from my canon 6D (LP-E6) and yes it works however i am unable to charge the battery via usb C nor will I be able to charge the batteries while using the grip BG-E22. Specs: As for the sensor i was and still impressed with it. It uses the same sensor thats in the 5D But the EOS R uses a Digic 8 image processor at 30.3 Mega pixels for the Cmos sensor as well while the 5D uses the digic 6 image processor with a 30.4 mega pixel for their Cmos sensor. The EOS R shoots 720P (23,24,60,120FPS), 1080P (23,24,60FPS), and also 4K as well. the only two issues i have in this department is that 4k is cropped at 1.7 and i can only shoot 120 frames per second only in 720P. i would also add that i can shoot 24 frames per second i would have to have a display attached to be able to shoot exactly 24 frames per seconds. I also finally was able to shoot in c-log as well! some of the videos i was posting on my channel i was messing around with c-log and i will tell you color grading will be your best friend when using c-log. When shooting in c-log you are given a choice for 8 bit or 10 bit as well. Lens: I feel this was one of the selling points for me to get this camera. The EOS R uses a RF mount but as i said earlier their new lens are expensive! So canon knew this and when you purchased a adapter you they gave you one for free. yea....free. The adapter that comes with is a standard mount adapter for your EF lenses. meaning with this camera i am able to use all of the basic lens, the L series lens, and the new RF lens as well. not pretty bad when you think about it. because when and if i want to shoot in 4k for my youtube videos or weddings i can just get a Canon 10-18 STM and have that ultra wide view to make up for the crop. The one thing i do love about the RF lenes is the control ring. i am able to use the control ring to control my ISO, Shutter, or aperture in my configured settings. The only drawback i dont like is that some lenes will not work with the EOS R . i have a older model 70-200 by tamron and i can only shoot manual when using it with the EOS R. Handles: When compared to the sony A7III i think this camera is better design wise..when i had the sony a7III in my hands i legit felt like i was going to drop the camera in the store. it just didn't feel ergonomic to me. with the R it just felt good in my hands and i just felt more confident when holding it. It really feel better when you pair it with the battery grip. thats what i use when i go shoot weddings. Overall: This camera was a sleeper on everybody. I feel like canon could've added more like the missing dual slots the inbody stabilization and no cropping on the 4k hopefully if the rumors is true the next mirror less will have the better features that they messed up on. So who would i say this camera is for? Me personally i would say it will be good for a photographer. I shoot weddings and i have no problem with it and when i get my feet wet i will shoot some sports games with it as well. Like i said in my previous video when i unboxed it. i feel that this is the 5d mk4 little brother thats just missing some things the 5d mk4 has. If you have the money to get a canon 6d mark 2 you should just go ahead and just get the EOS R

I think im done with my local FGC community for a minute...and here's why.

Now i bet your wondering why i am making this post lol  Whelp sit back and have a drink because i am going to do my best to explain why i think i am done with my community...so where should i start?

I think it was way back in 2009...street fighter IV just dropped..i knew NOTHING about the FGC...but whats so funny about this Ive probably played against and got my ass handed to all the top players at our arcades that we have/had here in Michigan...i can honesty say that the only two arcades Ive only been to once is wizards and Rosco's...all the other places my step dad always took me and my brother to go play...but any who...

I never knew such a world exist outside my normal life at the time...So when i heard that game stop was having a tournament i was deciding if i was gonna go or not...i thought about it at the last minute to go because i was unsure as to how good i was gonna do...welp to my surprise i ended up getting 2nd blah blah blah...Met a couple players and just like that they told me about tournaments and such and such...

Playing in tournaments is a whole new beast...at least for me...it was all this shit that i honesty never knew about in fighting games...footsies, i heard of turtling lol,  proper spacing, FRAME DATA, shortcuts...all that shit...at that point i knew i was way behind...the only thing that i just could not catch on was learning frames lol...i legit would just look at a move that my opponent threw out and if it was a delay i just knew i could punish it ::shrugs:: THAT IT...that's all i knew...i didn't know the whole meta game of how to make reads and bait my opponent so i ended up having to learn the hard way lol

The scene i was in at the time was VERY competitive at the time.  Everybody was hungry..no matter which game people were willing to learn the game, break it down and learn the match ups and grind ed shit out.  too be honest i thought at one point Michigan was really the best in the Midwest but that's an argument i will save for some other time lol.

Fast forward about two- three years ago...i cant pin point it but i will honestly say i knew the scene was headed in a fucked up direction...every time i spoke up about it...it came off as hating and that "we need to move the community forward" as some of the things that people would say....There was a certain someone in our community that literally hijacked our annual tournament and made it into his own circus show..something that i was somewhat apart of when it first started..our scene pretty much went from a competitive scene to a PG-13 E-sports show with no money involved.  pretty much people cant voice their opinions with feeling insulted , we have to somehow coddle these people so their feelings don't get hurt...but when they leave and go to a out of town tournament the shit talking and loud yelling gets to them and they get they shit pushed in and then wanna place blame on the community for not helping them prepare for shit like that....

So now that you have some of the history lets fast forward to this year bullshit that has caused a big ass divide within our community...Sooooooooooooo this bullshit all started with a tweet from someone in our community..they pretty accused him of being sexist because of what he said in the tweet...but if you really know the guy he's actually a cool trolling guy...when i saw who the tweet was from i just knew it was gonna blow up because of what he said...this ain't the first time he said some wild shit like this before so ehh whatever...but what he didn't realize is he started something so damn epic that it was the start of the divide of our community.  Because of that tweet people with the alphabet group felt uneasy and didn't feel safe because of that tweet...again the tweet that pretty much said a GIRL was gonna go 0-2 made people get in their feelings.

That tweet also costed us a venue as well..and it also caused drama between each other as well...So now that we didn't have a venue again, people don't feel safe,  we pretty much had to start all over.  So what one of the community leaders did was he took it upon himself (and me in the background) to go back to where we were playing at before we went all esports...lucky for us we left on a good note and they welcomed us back with open arms (not really lol) but we were there...So what we did was he started charging people five bucks to come play and that's it...he gathered over $500 dollars playing and we legit didn't know what we wanted to do with the money...the options were:

1. Buy equipment
2. donate the money to a good cause
3. add it to the pot bonus for the next event that we run

NOBODY couldn't make a choice..it was a group effort...people couldn't make up their minds as to what they wanted to do with the money..honestly we shouldn't of gave them a input and just picked one and just lived with it...because what ima about to tell you what happened after this was fucked up.

Now this lil fucker (yes fuck this guy for life) he is another person that caused the divide in our community and already had intentions of doing this (he admitted to it in a private chat he didn't know i had access too ) ...he messaged me asking me what were we doing with the money because he left the group and he didn't know what was going on so he wanted a update.  So he pretty much told me he wanted his money back...ehhh say what?  yea...dude legit said he wanted his five bucks back....nah man this ain't how it works...if its one thing when i know shit ain't right i knew shit wasn't right...the way he was talking to me was as he was pasting the same messages to the other person which was my boy...i called him up and yep he confirmed that he was sending the same messages to both of us...so we told him this (well my boy did lol)  that we will let him in the group....and let him ask the community can he get his five bucks back...if they said yea then aye we would've sent that shit paypal, cashapp to whatever the fuck email he gave us...but ehh it didn't go too well for buddy..he pretty much got ROASTED for that shit..real bad....too the point i had to delete the post...that how bad it was...but what i didn't realize what he did was this...

While he was in the group...fuck boy legit went through every post about the funds gathered screenshots, and pretty much accused me and my homeboy for stealing the community money.  now if its one thing i know the FGC as a whole hates thieves and mos def hate when community leaders steal money as well...its one thing if he posted this shit on his Face book i could easily contain the situation at bare min but aye MY FUCKING REP IS ON THE LINE HERE. but the fuck boy blasted that shit on twitter....and it somewhat spreaded like wildfire.  when i was informed of this i was pissed.  because here i am trying to do something good for the community and this fuckboy is trying to bring us down. i was so upset i said some things i shouldn't of said lol because where i am from you dont accuse someone of stealing and not have proof..that's how you get shot,  that's how you get beat up and "pistol whipped" lol

So someone screenshots my comment and next thing you know this happened

This move right here was a PR move...a move that could've got us banned from other events across the country...they purposely did that because i think other tournament orgs follow them...and if they saw it (which i am pretty sure) then it could push for more bans.  all because i was trying to protect my rep..I already knew what kinda move it was and pretty much decided to not say anything til now...but the people that are on this "list" except for one (he competes) were somewhat of community leaders, Two out of the 4 had some type of influence on the community in a way.  but this move they did kinda backfired on them.  no other tournaments banned us, and the whole Detroit scene and others has stated that if they banned they will not attend this event.  moving along.

So with this year being all about rebuild me and my boy tried to get something going and it had alil steam but because it was located in Detroit people wasn't really fucking with it.  it got to the point that every Friday i was taking time out of my busy ass life to come to Detroit (because i was coming from novi and now belleville) to open up my dad spot, so people could come play...some weeks it was good...some weeks we was dead as hell...and it started to bother me alil...so i thought either it was the location or because people dont really fuck with me like that (because of all that shit that went down...so what did was i did a test...one week i decided to switch the casuals to the location that the Monday sessions were on...and only the same people only showed up...not gonna lie..it kinda hurted... knew it was coming and i knew that it was gonna happen..no love lost to them i wish them the best. i just hope they have everything in order.  

Another yearly event is coming up (youmacon) and too be honesty i don't think i will go...because the same people that fucked our scene up is running the tournament and i cant be around people like that...its gotten to the point now that i don't even wanna show up on Monday's to play..as much as i would love too i just don't want to anymore...i see why krone and at the time el chakotay didn't show up because they didn't wanna deal with the bullshit.  After a whole year of dealing with that bullshit i am just burned out and just felt like i was NEVER given a fair shake.  and too some people they would just agree with shit just so they can put their people in the right place by kissing ass (you know who you are if you read this)

So i am done with the Mifgc for now...I'll only show up to casuals at people house that i fuck with to get better and that's it.  y'all will just see me at majors or my Face book if y'all still have me as friends after reading all this shit.  I've tried to let this shit go  but its just somethings i just cant and this is the way i am dealing with it.  So if i fuck with you invite me to your house casuals but outside of that i will not show up to any Michigan ran tournaments for awhile.  I'll just be at home trying to be a family man that y'all always clowned me on.  peace

Oh and PS if you feel some type of way about this shit feel free to hit me up..I'm not deleting this shit so that's out the question..its ALOT of shit i left out because  i would've been here all night typing this shit.