You know the one thing that i hate the most? (somemore random shit)

Secrets...i honesty hate them. even if they are not about me. i honesty just cant stand when people act secretly...another thing i hate the most and when people have secret convo's around me. i just cant stand that shit at all.

I honesty dont know what the hell is wrong with me. i've been in the bitchy'est moods latly and its driving me nuts. lets see...in the past two months....i lost my job...car broke down....and then car gets towed away. yea i left it on the old block where i was staying at but it was not like i was just gonna leave it there or as they put it .."abandoned"...

Sooooo that leaves me with no car...again....So its back on the bus when i start working again....I supposed to start this one job but they keep having delays...So i'm losing hope with that shit...i wanna start working now...i cant just be in the house all damn day and just look at tv. i tried to deal with it but i just cant. i need to just keep myself busy until further notice...

but other than that everything else is fine (relationship,health,etc) besides my sprained shoulder....So looks like i will just nurse this shit back because basketball practice is coming up So i at least wanna be in shape.

i honesty hate that i have no one to talk to...like in person...all my friends/family have either moved...don't get me wrong i have friends in the D its just stuff that i normally talk to them about i just sometimes hate talking on the phone...

I also noticed that i've been really distance from most of my friends that i have in detroit...i dont know why i just been in "closing myself from the world" type of mood...i wanna sk8...i wanna get back into going to tournaments...just have not had the motivation to do it.

i've noticed that i'm a smartass...its coming to the point where i act like my dad sometimes lol. my girlfriend thinks my dad is teaching me "the game" but thats not the case..i honesty think that my dad just dont want me to walk in the footsteps that he walked back in his day. He swears up and down i dont listen to him. but in honesty i think he does not listen to me...We had a talk awhile back about the same topic on why he thinks i dont listen to him. its not that i dont listen...i do listen....instead of me taking the easy way out i would rather learn somethings myself...i seen that path (for example my brother) and look where it got him. always begging and begging. i feel when all else fails..as in when i tried everything in my power to do something and it didnt work...then i goto my dad or mom.

oh and i finally got my llc papers done..So i'm a step further ;)

anywho looks like dinner is ready...bout to eat and watch tv afterwards....stay up and stay safe...peace